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Woke up early (5.15am) thx to my mum again -_-'''. Started to do some revision on paeds & maternal infant & i was happy tat i could remember hahas.
Took a short nap b4 continuing on mental health part.. Seriously.. with so much to cover i dun think i can finish everything.. Geez

My home now... has one big fat white elephant. Dunno whether he working anot. People leave home for work @ 7+.. while he 9am still @ home. People come back from work @ ard 6.30pm.. he? Back home by 1pm. Stay in the house is fine.. BUT AT LEAST BRING $$ HOME LAH!!.. OMG sometimes i wonder y my mum dun wan to get a divorce. Tat white elephant dun support the family since my elder bro was BORN. Instead he go buy Ridiculous Stuff. Records Football Matches & keeps Them. WAT FOR???

Expects my mum to support HIM, Wans us to RePect Him like SOME KING. Demands for tis & tat. NeverMind, Tat Idoit doesnt even noe Tat me & my 2nd bro has Allergies!!! He recently bought a house air fresherner Then i Told him not to use it.. WAH LOU he still go use it then i was wondering y when i sit in the hall to watch tv got a funny smell & later on i suffered from severe headache & brain freeze. OMG!!!. In fact he doesnt even noe wat sec sch or course his children attends. Y?.. when i was in primary sch i found out tat my mum has been paying all the school fees & tat BAKA didnt bother to help out!

Since i was Pri 6 (tats when i got to noe everything)... I no longer recognise him. To me, My mum raised me single-handed. Thus i onli have 1 biological parent.. no others. I told my mum b4 when i move out, i will bring her along & probably severe ties with tat White elephant.

People may say tat im heartless, cruel watever. then i as a nurse should be humble & caring. YES i agree tat i should be showing care & concern & forgive n forget for ppl wrong doings. BUT for him.. NO WAY for wat he did to my family. da hate has reach the core of my heart causing a hole in my heart which i have been hoping for someone to fill it.

People may say tat luckily his not a gambler or smoker or drug addict. So wat he already did things tat a gambler/drug addict would do, suffered illness like a smoker. HE better not become an abuser otherwise i'll kick him out of the house.

The Current problem: da elephant have not payed his share of the house. then my mum said there's a possibility have to move house & down grade

Shen arh y 1/2 of my dna comes from him. Aiyoh
wad did i do in my past life ??