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Tuesday, January 30, 2007 For the past few weeks... i thought life was becoming better. No sorrow, pain... disappointment. But today all of tat came back Yesterday Cuyan told me to remind her abt the group separation for the year 3 project. I did tat & thus during ELAHA tutorial we were trying to form groups of 6.... but since many grps onli have 5 ppl (including mine) ... the onli solution is tat 1 grp split up. Since my grp (Zhang Yang, Kim, Karyin & Xiuyi) have split up before... so i suggested tat & since they all agreed, i told the class abt it. The moment i did tat.... everybody started snatching for grp members. Starting with Aisyah who took zy.. then jiawen took kim & karyin .... then wendy took xiuyi. But no one wanted me I thought for the whole year... i put in so much effort to proof the others of my capability... but no one wanted me. I had expected certain grps to take me in... but they didnt Cuyan, jiawen & tini tried to find a grp for me, For tat i dun blame them. But can someone respect me for who i am!! and not push & throw me like a rag-doll !!!! i feel SOOO Awlful So Lonely. When someone suggested me going to Aaron's grp... i jus said anything.. i dun wan to think abt it Zy.. sry tat i left the room by myself.. I just needed to be alone & calm myself down. Yah lah cry my heart out. By the time i reach blk 37 where i sat down to study for ELAHA test... i was pretty much cooled down. Manage to study on Law of Tort b4 Aaron & Adeline came.... Aaron ask whether i want to join his grp.... I said ok After tat as Aaron joke ard with me & adeline.. i was thinking maybe tis was a better way.. breaking me free of my comfort zone & getting to work with ppl from other grps. Fate seems to be playing with me... Putting me is an awkward situation then giving me a solution to it.... Haiz.. Wo Ren Ming Liao Lah I had it I have come to a point where... I gave Up ...Giving up hope in trying to get ppl to acknowledge me for my existence... I onli can say True friends cannot be found in polytechnic.. |